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How Can You Tell When It’s Finally Time To Admit You Are Addicted?

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Denying addiction is part of the problem. Eventually, you are so far down the rabbit hole that it’s too late. So how can you spot the signs before you get so far down the rabbit hole that it’s impossible to climb back up again?

In this quick piece, I’m going to give you 10 ways you can spot if you are addicted to anything, and that it’s getting more chronic.

It’s obviously not scientific, but it’s based on my experience. You’ll need honesty, and you’ll have to monitor your doses, frequency of doses, and how you feel on the other side over several weeks to see if things are just getting worse.

 

1. You keep pretending you still have a health problem when you don’t

 

Getting addicted to prescription meds can be a real problem. People won’t admit it, and can even convince their doctor they are still unwell in order to keep getting the drugs. They can even convince themselves they are still in need of them when they are not.

If your doctor is telling you that you are getting better, and your body/mind is telling you are getting better, yet you still keep telling yourself you are not, then it could be related to addiction. Of course, you might still be unwell, but take a step back and look if there is a possibility that you just keep wanting the drugs.

 

2. You need more and more to get the same feelings you use to

 

Whatever you are into that first time can often be the best. The times after that are great as well. If you are a few weeks or months down the line and you are taking significantly more than you were to chase the same high, and you simply aren’t getting the same feelings, then you could be building up a tolerance.

Tolerance is where you need more and more of a substance to get the same hit. It’s a mix of your body getting used to the drug you are taking, and also it’s the dopamine spike diminishing as your body cuts back on its production.

If you feel this is happening to you, then you really need to address the problem because building tolerance means that your habit could be spiraling out of control.

3. You feel worse and worse whenever you are on the comedown

 

Initially, things will be too bad on the other side of the experience. But the more you do it, the worse it gets.

You’ll feel stranger every single time you come down. Worse sweats, worse headaches, tired, with a lack of hunger. You can be confused, shivering when you are sweating, and unable to regulate your body temperature.

Whatever the symptoms on the comedown, if they are getting worse (keeping a diary is good at this point or filming yourself and talking about it), then it’s a sign that you are taking bigger doses more frequently, and your body is struggling more.

 

4. You can’t stop thinking about the drug

 

You find yourself spending more and more time thinking about the drug you are getting addicted to. Thoughts will start to intrude into every part of your life. You’ll think about how it feels, and how you can get more. When can you get the time to enjoy it soon?

You’ll also consider how much you can buy, and when. You will think about your finances and how much you can spare, and then a little more.

You will also spend more time thinking about how bad it is and how you feel afterward. Deep down you know it’s becoming a problem, and you can’t stop thinking about the good and the bad.

 

5. You keep smashing your self-imposed limits

 

If you find you are taking more and more drugs when you said you wouldn’t. That’s a big warning sign.

Also, he said you would only take them every now and again just to feel good and have fun, but now it’s happening more frequently. What started off as a rare treat has crept into more and more frequent use.

It could also be monetary limits getting smashed. You could have set an amount in mind you can spend each week or month, and that’s now been ignored as well. Lack of money is a huge sign of dependence building.

 

6. You’ve lost interest in the things you like to do

 

You will find you start to lose interest in things you used to enjoy doing, and also the people that you used to hang around with, who weren’t into drugs.

Everything will now be about the drugs and the people you take them with, or the people you hang around with in this situation is where you take end up taking them.

Your passion for everything normal in your life will diminish in importance. Sports, friends, children, partners, hobbies, parents, it will all start to seem less important and fade into the background and be replaced by a focus on drugs.

 

7. Completing daily tasks and responsibilities are getting tougher

 

Maybe you’ve started to find it harder to go to work or focus while you are there. It’s very common that work just becomes something in your mind that blocks you from getting close to drugs as quickly as possible.

You may find that you literally drift through your days without really achieving anything, maybe starting to pick up warnings at work as well.

Outside of work, the family could become less important to you. People could pick up on that and there could be more arguments and more accusations.

You may find that stuff like the washing and household chores are mounting up. You are always struggling for plates and cups because they are always laying around and washed. Basically, your domestic situation is beginning to be hand-to-mouth and deteriorating.

8. You start taking risks while under the influence of drugs or alcohol

 

Whether it’s one drug, alcohol, many drugs, or a combination, you will find more and more at times that you are taking risks while using them.

It could mean you are driving under the influence for example. Or you could be looking after children, or going to work. Basically, the boundaries between right and wrong, good and bad, and different parts of your life are blurring due to your desire to take what you need. Not to mention you can lose your job due to drug testing at work (to learn how to pass a urine test, click here).

Those risks can also extend your relationship. Risky behavior with other people, such as unprotected sex behind your partner’s back. Behaviors which are just not you, but are obviously risky to your happiness.

9. You start to lose control of your finances

 

You will start to fall behind on your bills. This will happen more and more frequently as you are buying drugs rather than paying the bills. A key symptom of drug use is struggling financially.

Drugs will be more important than food and clothing as well. This can be for you and other members of your family. Making it the spiraling problem that affects everyone around you.

You could also end up borrowing money from people and not paying them back. Deep down you may know that you never will, even if you try and convince yourself that you will. You may feel you have no pride left.

When you are in deep you will shamelessly come back to those people to beg for more money, lying through your teeth with any reason you can come up with to try and get as much out of them as possible, even if they are in need of the money themselves. Your scruples and morals will be going completely out of the window.

You could even start stealing money. Or stealing things to sell to get money for drugs. At the very least you could start selling your possessions to get money for drugs.

 

10. People will say you have changed

 

If you have any sort of normal lifestyle and aren’t just surrounded by people in the drugs scene, then people start to notice the changes in you.

The subversion, and anger, your actions, the selfishness, they will notice and comment. Your response will be anger and denial, and in your head you will tell yourself that they are the problem and not you.

You will start to shun the people who challenge you about the changes to surround yourself with people who instead enable the drugtaking.

Deep down you will know that you are changing. You are living more and more for the drugs. But not just for the drugs, but you are starting to submerge yourself in the culture and the people as well. You will find that you are living more for drugs and the people who take them, and supply them, than for the people you care for.

When that happens alongside ruthless use of money that is needed elsewhere, then you will undeniably know that you have significant drug addiction that is going to completely sink you unless you stop and change direction.

The Faces of Meth: How Meth Use Transforms Your Looks Forever

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In the beginning, crystal methamphetamine just feels like fun. An incredible feeling that seems to wash away everything negative in your life.

But that initial wedding night quickly turns into a living hell, far more quickly and absolutely than almost any other type of drug in existence.

In a short space of time, crystal meth can exert an extreme physical toll that becomes highly visible. Added to this are the significant emotional/mental deterioration and alteration problems that turn it into a 24/7 personal nightmare.

Some methamphetamines are legitimate and are used completely legally for things like ADHD and narcolepsy. These are scheduled drugs that can be prescribed.

Crystal meth is a different beast entirely. Street meth is typically d-methamphetamine HCI. When it’s crushed, it can be smoked, snorted, injected, or eaten.

Because of its high addiction rating, by the time you realize you are dependent, it’s far too late to stop. You are already in the grips, and your face will almost certainly look like the faces of meth that are routinely shown online.

The physical signs of meth addiction come on rapidly. Typically, beginning within a few weeks, and peaks in a very scarily low number of months.

The Physical Signs Of Meth Addiction

These are some of the physical signs of meth addiction that together give the face and body of meth addiction look:

  • Thin and frail body frame
  • Meth mouth (rotting teeth and gums)
  • Acne and facial sores
  • Convulsions
  • Drooping and greasy skin
  • Increased incidences of disease and illness
  • Significant increase in body temperature
  • Often intense desire to scratch which can lead to bloody sores
  • General gaunt and deathly look (“living dead”)
  • Increased libido

Increased libido is not something that is discussed often. Think about the TV show Breaking Bad. It was never really mentioned or shown, other than Jesse occasionally going with an addicted prostitute.

The increased libido is due to methamphetamine stimulating higher levels of sexual arousal, increased adrenaline, and a desire for risk.

Usually, this will mean unprotected sex with other risky people. Worse than that, the open wounds and general lack of health can lead to increased levels of sexual infection, including HIV (even higher if meth is injected).

So even the increased libido, if sexually transmitted diseases and other illnesses are caught, can lead to an even more rapid onset of physical meth symptoms.

Transition From Short-Term Effects To Long-Term Damage From Meth Use

The transition from the short-term effects of crystal meth addiction to the long-term damage that can be permanent can happen quickly.

This creeps up on people because initially they have a huge sense of well-being, higher energy levels, and experiences are generally good.

Apart from taking meth, it means more risk-taking, pushing the body, with less good quality food and fuel going in. On top of this, is the severity of the comedown, the crash, from crystal meth. The significant and rapid onset of the need for more. This becomes overwhelming.

The weight loss which helps to drive that face of meth look, that gaunt and haggard look, also comes on fast.

Within a few weeks, the hunger feelings are so suppressed that some users almost stop eating entirely. It leads to rapid weight loss, that then turns into significant muscle wastage as well. Alongside this will be extreme and increasing insomnia. Disturbed sleep, mixed with hyperactivity, makes the gaunt look even more exhausted.

Alongside these physical signs, there will then be a rapid onset of really bad and nasty mental effects as well.

These can include significant confusion, hallucinations, paranoia and extreme anxiety, delusions of grandeur, a sense of invincibility, nausea and sickness, aggressiveness, constant irritation, and convulsions.

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Long-Term Meth Use Is Devastating

Once meth use has become addictive and chronic it very quickly leads to devastating long-term consequences that are irreversible.

These are some of the long-term problems users can develop, and can keep even if they kick the habit:

  • Increased heart rate
  • Long-term anxiety and paranoia
  • Damaged blood vessels in the brain (increased stroke risk)
  • Irregular heartbeat
  • Lung damage
  • Liver damage
  • Kidney damage
  • Brain damage & notable cognitive deterioration
  • Mood swings
  • Permanent life memory gaps
  • Respiratory problems
  • Lifelong infectious diseases and lowered immune system
  • Psychosis
  • More chance of developing degenerative brain conditions

So if you’re sitting there thinking that this stuff sounds like the bong, then I really hope you’ll step back for a minute and consider the reality. Sure, in the short term you will feel great. Higher levels of energy, a better sense of well-being, a false sense of security, and higher sex drive; it just seems wonderful.

I’m telling you, that will change in literally weeks with daily use. And it will be daily use, even twice per day if you’re addiction rating is high. Within months you will get the meth look. You will not be able to hide it any longer.

Money will run dry, and life responsibilities like children and housing will vanish from your thoughts.

I have literally known someone who had two children and a beautiful house. They were very middle-class and had a good jobs as a department heads at a private school

When their marriage broke up, they got depressed and tried stuff. One of those things was crystal meth. That was what really grabbed hold. Not cocaine, not heroin, but the crystal.

Within months their demeanor and behavior completely change. They lost their job, then the house, and then custody of the children. With savings still hidden, they managed to rent somewhere. But very quickly, they had to deal to keep getting the hit and paying the rent. It became a drug den, and due to her high level of addiction, she then became a cuckoo for some really shady people.

Long story short, she went on the run because the cops were after her for being a significant source of meth dealing in our city.

On the run for a year, by the time they caught her she was unrecognizable. I remember seeing her picture in the paper and knowing the name, but the gaunt meth face looking back at me was like someone else entirely.

Now in prison for five years, having to go through the hell of cold turkey rehab, having lost her kids forever and her entire life, it’s one hell of a story. Sadly though, a story that is repeated a thousand times a day around the world now.

Wherever you are, the extreme physical stress that meth abuse puts on the body, followed by mental health problems and cognitive loss that lasts a lifetime, means that once it’s got its grip, it never really let’s go even if you manage to get clean months, or even years, down the line.